I woke up feeling amazing! I did sweat through the night, but felt light and energized this morning. I walked outside and two of the trainees, Rachel and Crystal, were dancing away...at 8:30 am! :) I laughed and joined in. Is this me? I felt happy. Laughing did not feel forced or uncomfortable. I wasn’t faking it. These two girls were such beautiful Spirits and the embodiment of Feminine power. I wanted to embrace this feeling. Let go of the old heaviness and feel the vitality spinning in and around me! And so we danced.
We were given the option of a fourth day in ceremony. Part of me wanted to go for it and do another session, but I decided to listen to my body and be kind to it today, especially after the overwhelming session I had the previous afternoon (link).
As the other participants who chose to do a fourth session were setting up, I heard this call or whisper in my ear. “Do your heart, one dot.”. When in Rome, right!? I smiled and dropped into my body to see if this felt right. It did.
This was one of the most memorable experiences I have had with kambo. I can feel it still to this day.
I had cleared so much from my lungs the previous day that my heart wanted to expand a little bit more. I had not micro-dosed (one dot) kambo before this point in time. I did not drink the water like usual; just enough to feel slightly full, but not uncomfortable. The onset was different this time. I felt this tremendous surge from my root chakra all the way through my crown. I began to feel a vortex/spiraling of energy and just let my body begin to move and sway with wherever my emotional body wanted to take me. It was euphoric and intense. Waves of emotion began to come over me and I cried. The tears just came. Oh the gratitude I felt for this medicine. The beauty of the pain. The feel of the Sunlight on my skin was so breathtaking and blissful. I felt good in my body. I felt good in my Soul. I felt whole. I could have stayed in this moment forever. One of the hosts, Donnell, came over and wrapped her tiny arms around me and I just let her hug and hold me. I didn’t feel the need to be guarded or uncomfortable by her touch or her gestures. She held space and I just enjoyed that feeling for a while.
I was now ready to start my kambo path. I have felt the medicine move through my veins. I have felt the physical and emotional healing. I have experienced the fire and water energy move through my blood, activating my chi and assisting me for the next step.
That afternoon our photographer (who was shooting some images for media/marketing purposes) was taking some photos of our kambo “tattoos”. One of the girls was standing over by the running water in the garden area and she had her shirt off. They were taking some beautiful and tasteful partially clothed photos. At first, I was just in awe of how easy it looked for her to step into her power and embody the Divine Feminine. The photographer looks over at me and asks if I wanted to take some. She and I had a chat the previous night about how I have struggled with some body dysmorphia issues from my spinal
curve and self imposed pressure for body perfection. I have just never really felt that Feminine and I wanted to feel this energy more. I had to do it. I knew this would be empowering for me and I could be the only person in the world who sees them but at least I was starting to express and embody myself as a whole, loving every piece. I took the pictures (hehe one is to the right that I felt I could share).
I was riding a serious energy wave. I could not wait to get home and get to work! I had some people to help and I wanted them to feel as happy and joyful as I did in that moment. We all have different things that bring us peace, joy and contentment. It was the energy & vibration of those emotions that felt so powerful. I think we can all tap into those streams of energy and consciousness when we are in the flow with a proper resonance pattern.
So here I am. Expressing and opening up to whatever possibilities lie ahead.
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***Photos by Andrea Sarcos***